Peace

We are in Florida visiting family. We needed to get away and i have a wonderful aunt and uncle that live here in Tampa and invited us down. We are having a wonderful time. I am enjoying visiting with her the most. I have been really tired nearly everyday. I realized i havent been up and around more than a day or two. We have been here since Friday and ive been trying to keep up but i feel so tired. My back hurts and now my incision has become a little more tender. It really is going to take me awhile to get back to normal. I have had such a great time playing with my little cousins they are so sweet. I wish my niece and nephew could be here. I really miss them. My aunt told Jaramie today that we need to move down here so i can have some peace. Ive been thinking about it. It would be nice. We'll see. I do look up to my aunt. She is a great mother and wonderful grandmother. She loves her grand kids so much. She does crafts with them and all kinds of things. I love to see this. I want to be like her when i have grand babies. Today we went to the Florida aquarium in Tampa and i saw a little baby boy in a stroller he had cute little chubby legs and he was make noises with his mouth, then for the first time i really thought about having another baby. I told Jaramie maybe we could try in January. He said we'll see. Im sure he is still pretty shook up from everything that happened. I know if i had been in his shoes id be the same way. I hate that he had to go through all of that but it has brought him closer to the Lord and id do it all again if i had to. After all Jesus gave his son so we could have eternal life and we will get to be with our son again bc of that. I am so thankful. Jaramie went fishing on the pier last night and threw out his throw net to catch bait fish and a dolphin jumped right beside it, he thought it was in his net. Thankfully it wasnt bc the 200-300lb dolphin would of pulled him off the pier and under. It scared me. I thought, when the lord is ready to take Jaramie he will. I have begun to accept death. My aunt told me today that grandma used to say "you celebrate at a funeral and cry at weddings". That is so true, i know next month i will cry at my brothers wedding and when my grandmother passed away 4 days before i had Mason i told my dad that it was the time to celebrate her life and the special moments we shared with her, when he called me crying. It was a hard week for my family, Monday we lost my grandmother, buried her wed., i went into labor fri. and Mason passed then i almost did. I didnt get to attend my grandmothers visitation or funeral bc i was on bed rest. I would have been so hard. I miss her so much. Family is so important. Being here has made me realize how close i am with my sister. We talk several times a day and since ive been here i havent talked to her much and i really miss her. When i was on bedrest she would come over and help so much. She would vacuum, sweep, do laundry, wash my hair, and feed me. All why taking care of her 3 and 4 year old little ones. She also would go to Memphis when we would go see the specialist. She is a wonderful person and i am proud to be her sister. God has blessed me with such a wonderful family.

We want to thank Henry and Martha for the wonderful time here. I really needed it Martha, you have been so good to me and an inspiration. Thank you for listening and the support. I love you.